Martini until the end. Play pool again - that's why i really love (my friends)

"I was so lost in my pain, fear was melting my brain,
I was counting the days to insanity,
I was afraid to move myself
Afraid to hurt myself, more than I had until that day
Everything I believed in, everything I fought for
Was now underneath my feet and my heart beat
Was so gone, couldn't be felt by anyone
So alone it gave me the creeps
My drugs got me in bed went up to my head
and I really don't wanna depend
So I'll stick to

My friends and my friends and my car and my friends
My friends and my cards and my car and my friends
Martini until the end
Play pool again

Never thought would be like this
No one told me it would be like this
I'm amazed, I'm amazed with myself
And my brain and my pain
And my pain and my veins
Are delivering it to my health
My self confidence was broken while my trust was taken
And it left me with an empty life and this knife
Rests on the middle of me bed, I think in all the things she said
Close my eyes and sleep
All these drugs in my head, it seems I'm already dead
And I really don't want to depend."